The end..

Is a brand new year now...2009...

Times really fly..1 year juz gone in flash..2008 is a year that mean really alot to me..experience really alot during this year...learn alot during this year also...

Jan 2008 - Accompany my best buddy, chia ming until 16th. Started to stone after he is gone..frenz are all working and college.

Feb 2008 - STONE.

March 2008 - Went to Canada..alot of things happened...learned really alot abt life during this month..

April 2008 - Came back frm Canada. Worked in Wong Kok..really having alot of fun in Wong Kok..

May 2008 - Went for The One Academy intake. Study in TOA. Assignments

June 2008 - Assignments. Exploration week..Fallen in love..

July 2008 - Assignments. Heart broken in the ending of July...Got my driving license.

Aug 2008 - Assignments. Sem break..went cameron with janson, yeerick, kah yan, gavin, chun how.. p/s thx to chun how for the hospitality...

Sep 2008 - Assignments..but not so much assignments..Got myself into 19.

Oct 2008 - Assignments..

Nov 2008 - Assignments..yeerick went to Thailand..

Dec 2008 - Sem break..class seperated..went Port Dickson..really enjoy myself in the trip..it is the best trip i ever got myself into...thx mates..=) after P.D trip got myself into another trip with another group of frenz..Penang..eat really alot..x'mas, new year..

I cant..

I cant do it...

juz let me b the one who suffer then..

this is my final decision..

if u are happy then so am i...

Yes! u did it again...!!!

Yes! go and b a nice guy somemore!!! Goood!!!!! very good...juz who the fuck u think u are? LMAO!! 

being 烂好人all the time...juz fuck off and leave everyone alone la...

Is time to juz care abt urself...not the others.....

Everytime taking up all the problem and troubles up to urself...what do u get? Not even a piece of shit...and why are u keep doing all these? Juz who the hell u think u are? 

Juz making ppl around u worse and worse...! STFU and mind ur own buiness la retard honwai! 

对不起，谢谢你

这是一个写给你的部落格，也不知道你会不会看到。。但。。只想在此感谢你一直以来的陪伴和跟你说声对不起。。

想要放弃这段感情是纯粹我的问题，与你无关。。只因我做不到不求回报的付出。。

曾与你说过只要你的改变能让你自己更开心。。那么我都会支持你。。

那些不能接受的朋友都不是真正关心你的。。

如今却发现那些不能接受的便是我自己。。我无法毫无保留的付出。。。

我无法接受谎言了。。就数只是纯粹的玩笑。。。我无法接受。。。无法从你那儿接受。。。

毕竟。。你曾答应过不会欺骗我的。。。我自私了。。我不想再受到伤害了。。对不起。。。

如今，

我不会再叮咛你早点睡，

不会再叮咛你喝多点水，

不会再叮咛你照顾好自己的身体，

不会再告诉你多心了，

不会再问你还有心痛吗。。

不会再问你呼吸顺畅吗。。。

毕竟。。我的关心并不是你最想要到。。。

希望你能找到一个真真正正关心你的人吧。。。

感谢你在我最需要人的时候肯陪伴着我的身旁。。虽然每次都是我在烦着你。。。

如今不会再有人在你身边烦着你，不会再有人在你耳边再唠唠叨叨了。。。

再一次。。谢谢你的陪伴。。。对不起，我无法再这样的关心你了。。。

再见。。我最好的朋友。。。

24/12/2008

Wake up early in the morning, do some chating on msn...

11.30 went to redbox at curve...sing k alone...fallen in love with 蕭閎仁 的 "連貝多芬都想告訴你"..

first time that go sing k alone...the feeling is kinda weird...but is kinda fun also...can shout watever i wan to...=)

come back home at around 2 something, play the sims2...designed a new house for myself...kinda like it...

5something went and cut my hair...come back home and get ready myself for the coming party...

6something went and pick up sau hwa and head straight to esther condo...only 3 ppl is there only..I started the bbq fire...

8something went and fetch jarrel with kah yan..after all the jam and stuff..we finally reached damansara kim...then jarrel call back..."u coming to 1u to fetch me now?" I was like...."WTF?" =________=  "u are in 1u nvr tell me...i am going to ur house now la..."nvm....still went back and fetch him...on da way brought some sausage...

10something fetch alric back to his house to grab his car key...his key is stuck in the car...fetch him back to the condo and go in awhile...then come back out and hav some drinks with other frenz...went home and take a nap...2 something receive janson call...asking me to go his house. Wake my self up and go to janson house...played some card games and had some beers..

Felt hungry...wanted to go eat..but no1 wanna follow...go back home alone and sleep... merry x mas...! =)

Make up the mind...

I been confuse alot these days...

Confuse about love,

confuse about friends,

confuse about life...

Is time to cheer up and come back to alive...!

like what mei linn told me...

"dun think about other things, juz concentrate on ur study.."

Time to serious towards my own future now...

Upgrade myself..

and stop thinking abt other things...

Special thx to,

Mei linn, Kar leong, Zhi ling, Hong yi..

=)

Giving up...

Starting to realise...

What have u been caring wasn't me...

I am nothing to u actually...

I know there is someone else in ur heart...

But i tot at least i stand a space in ur heart also...

I was wrong...

Totally wrong...

What I said, ntg go into ur heart..

What u promise...come with a sorry...

I guess the care was force to do so...

Bcuz I am the one who always annoying u...

Even my caring toward u had started to annoyed u...

Should I even bother u anymore...

Should I still treat u as my best frenz...

Should I give up this relationship...

I am scared of getting hurt...

And i think i will be giving up this relationship...

Bye....

Old mates..

Haha...days after days...finally had made a small gathering...

Now...

Let the pictures tell...

Having a drink in Yipee Cup

Smile~~ 

Wei ru

Hong Yi

The guys *Me, Sau Hwa, Zhan Hong*

The girls *Wei ru, Esther, Hong yi*

Finally...the group photo and us...although not all our class member is able to turn out...

But...Its ad a rare chance for us to see each other like this...

Thx for attending the gathering...

=)

Kongkamness

I think i had lost my kongkamness...

Someone...

I really need someone...

someone to giv me back my kongkamness...

which myself duno who is the someone...

but...

i need someone...

or my kongkamness will b gone...

HELP??

lol...

KONGKAM TRIP!!!

Waiting Zhi Ling to help me blog this out...xD hahahaha...

Juz to make a clear copy..

I DUN LIKE CHAN MEI LINN!!!

WE ARE BUDDY!!!

WE ARE SISTER!!!

Kns....=____=

怀念

我怀念那一起画画的日子。。

我怀念那一起说笑的日子。。

我怀念那一起唱歌的日子。。

我怀念那一起kongkam的日子。。

我怀念那一起去pyramid的日子。。

我怀念那一起熬夜的日子。。

我怀念那一起赶工课的日子。。

我怀念那一起去玩的日子。。

我怀念那一起吹着酒瓶的日子。。

我怀念那一起戏水的日子。。

我怀念那一起笑的日子。。

我怀念那我们在一起的日子。。。

一个人的冬至。。。

人说。。

冬至， 吃汤圆。。。

吃了后，

就会长大一岁。。

我并不是个庆祝冬至的人，

今年的冬至，

自己一人过。。

家人都不在。。

好宁静阿。。。

我的汤圆呢？

哈哈。。。

Cool?

Here a pic of my self in history presentation...

Sorry for the late posting, i dun hav any pic la...!!!

p/s Thx zhan yang for the picture..=)

I am in love...

I had fall in love with the feeling of sober...

The feeling of dizzy...

The feeling of high...

The feeling of freedom...

I think i would prefer drunk than sober, but I havn't drunk b4, I cant tell...

Went to Port Dickson and Penang in a week,

Drink in both trip,

Frenz in the penang trip started to tell me that im drunk...am i? I still can walk in straight line..haha...maybe is juz bcuz i dun talk that much in this group of frenz.. I drink more in P.D leh...lol...

I miss P.D trip.....

19/12/08

I am down, I am sad..

I duno why, I duno how...

I am lost...I am confuse...

Anyone will be there to tell me what should i do? 

Anyone will be there to give me my right answer?

Anyone will be there juz because of me?

Leave ur name plz..=)

To all my dearest frenz who is reading my blog,  welcome to my blog.. please drop ur name here...at lease let me know who is reading my blog...k? =)

The feeling of leaving...

After the days after days, the day had finally arrive...

Is the time that we face it,

Is the time that we come across it,

Good bye and take care i should say,

The 3 days 2 nights Port dickson was really fun, thx guys... we had spend our time together for 6 months, it is not a long period but neither a short period too...I could proudly say that most of my time with u all are the good times that i had in my life. And now we had came to a spliting path, take care and move on to our own path with success!! Stay connected oh..must on our bluetooth all the time.... =) 

The day that blog been expose

Wanted to keep this blog as my dairy and keep it in private...

But then....

Seem like many had ad found out this blog, i guess is not nessesary to keep it as "private" anymore 

WELCOME TO MY BLOG...!

Sorry ru...

Suppose to blog this week ago,

Sorry ru...

Sorry for not putting my full trust on u...

Sorry for suspecting u lie to me...

Sorry for choosing the wrong person to put my trust on...

I know u wouldn't mind.. but in my heart...really....i feel bad...

How could i suspect u?

And once again, thx....ru.....for being by my side all along....

Love ya lots...

感觉

又是这种感觉。。

从内心最深处挖掘出的伤感。。

那足以令人痛哭一场的感伤。。

这一阵一阵的抽痛，仿佛正对着我说。。是时候放弃了。。。

我已厌倦了， 我也累了。。

想想。。其实近几年来自己真的改变了很多。。真的好多。。。