10/8/2011

Been spending the whole day on classes, assignment and preparation on tmr math exam. Well..its a last min study again. Thanks dear and woon kee for the teaching...

It suck when I can't do math. Nvr been a problem and yet always a problem now.

Time to bulk up!!!

8/8/11

Had been spending much time over exams and assignment these days.

1 of those things that I wouldn't do in the previous days.

Well, few things that I wanna update in this post:

1) I got a girlfriend. In the date of 10/7/2011, she finally decided to accept me. =)

2) Result ain't doing so well. 3.8 cgpa might be a tough achievement.

3) Friends going oversea. Alan had made his move to Aus last month and Janson gonna go U.K on Sep with Cheau Ying as well.. Vince and Alric gonna go oversea on next Jan. I guess I will be kinda lonely in the coming year.

4) Jason Tan Chia Ming gonna come back on this Oct. ( Thats what he said) Would b a great time to spend on the Oct onward but Janson is gone that time. Well...really had been a while since the last time we 3 hang out and crash in each other houses...old days...

In conclusion, Im still doing pretty well these days. =) Cheers fellow friends!

8/7/2011

Alright, I am gonna blog back as the purpose of dairy again.

Well, yesterday was Alric's Birthday, went to Esther's house (Alric's Gf) to give him a surprise party.

Brought dear along...she was kinda shy thought..

Lots of friends around...hanging out, chit chat around...

Predicted something to happened. (will see it would happen or how)

Take care friend.

Alright...I tried my best to care about u but u juz aint telling me anythings...

Juz hope that u are fine.

Take care friend. =)

陌路知己

昔日的你，昔日的我。

我视你为我心中那最重要的人。

The caring and love that I wanted to gave had already reach the maximum of its limits.

Do u remember how often we chat with each other?

I really thought that u are the best hearted girl I ever seen in my life. Which make me treat u diff from how I treat the others.

Time pass, things changed, people changed.

I am not the one that u will find when u're down anymore. Beside, each time I asked how have u been doing, the answer are always ok. I guess Im just not the one then.

While the time I need someone to stand beside me and hold me still. U were never there anymore. Somehow, sharing and asking u opinion had caused us into big argument as well.

Well, I dont think u still care about me also. Just, 以往的我的确将你当成最好的知己。如今的你已不是以往那我认识的知己了。不再是那为你开心而开心，为你悲伤而难过得白痴。

我也该是时候像你般，自我保护了。你依旧是我的朋友，但不再是我的知己了。

珍重，朋友。

微

微，你又出现于我的梦境之中了。

于梦中，我们重遇了。

你如往常般的文静，甜美的笑容依旧能让人感到温馨。

那既熟悉又陌生的你还是让我感到不适。

你是第一个对我关爱有加的女生，在众多师长对我恶言以对之时也唯有你在我身边默默地支持与鼓励。

感谢你让我体会到当时的爱也抱歉一次又一次地让你失望。

是你教会一个年少轻狂的小子如何去爱。

真的好想回到过去，在众多人前深深地拥抱着你。

你过得。。还好吗？

new plan

Alright, after all the enjoyable moment, I think its time for me to upgrade myself.

Weekly assignment
-Swim at least once
-Work out at least twice
-Self study on stock market

好了，累了，放了。

对于追求过的每一段感情，

投入的都是自己的全心全意。

然而，付出的而换来的却永不相等。

如今，已不会奢侈的挥霍那廉价的爱了。

好了，累了终究还是会放的。

一切，随缘。。。

5/6/11

Stop acting like a dog anymore.

Unforgettable day.

U actually use "fucking" and "retarded" to me.

I am shocked.

I was stunned.

The changes just started to make me feel unrecognizable toward u.

Are u still the one that I care and love the most?

天意?

似乎是我误解了。

我不应再怪任何人。

一切即为天意吧。

人定固然不能胜天吗？

26/4/2011

最近都爱上了飙女高音。。。

upload 了一小段上了youtube. =)

Im okay and fine.

Thanks for all the caring from ppl who gave the concern.

Maybe I overuse the words in my previous post.

I am okay and fine.

Thanks...guys...

=)

Pathetic

Alright...I shall start the post from the beginning of my day.

Got back from vince's house at 4am in the morning...waited the time to be pass...

5.30am, send uncle Andrew and aunt Catherine to KLIA. Got back home at around 9am after having breakfast in taman mega.

Sleep for 3 to 4 hours and had some chat with chia ming. After that learn to key in some account entry.

9pm, head out to cake sense(fav cake shop) to buy a cake for u(haven't blow any candle lastnight), asked u while im on the way.

"Dinner-ing? Wad time r u gonna back home?"

"Yea..dinner-ing..later goin sing k..."

Alright...seem like I'll have to wait for some times to pass...=)

Headed to DJ after that, walking around like some retards...

Finally the clock reached 11.59pm. Send a wishing sms to u and knowing that u might sing till 4 something...

Told myself "Its alright...juz 4 more hours to go..."

Actually set a alarm in case that i would accidentally fall asleep...well, u can see I don't really had enough of sleep thru...=(

Tested u again on 3.30am. U said u juz reached home...and now u are going to sleep...I asked for 5 mins but u said u already set the alarm, cannot open the door.

Alright..I guess deactivate the alarm would be a difficult job.. =)

I just feel so pathetic...

I shall blow the candle myself. =)

Cake sense always my fav shop. =)

It might not be nice enough but at least I spend my effort and time to make this present for u.

Once again...happy birthday... =)

Time to fully focus on something else. =)

爱的时候，让他自由；不爱的时候，让爱自由。

既在乎曾经拥有,也在乎天长地久

宁愿高傲单身，也不委屈自己。

别等不该等的人，别伤不该伤的心。

有时，爱也是种伤害.

残忍的人，选择伤害别人;

善良的人，选择伤害自己.

暗恋是最好的哑剧，说出来可能会变成悲剧

哭，并不代表我屈服；

退一步，并不象征我认输；

放手，并不代表我放弃；

正如我微笑，并不意味着我快乐

只有放弃，没有忘记。

看的淡一点，伤的就会少一点，时间过了，爱情淡了，也就散了。

时间，让深的东西越来越深，让浅的东西越来越浅。

佛说缘是一块冰，要度五百年。

佛问苦吗?我说不苦。佛于是许我一段缘。得之我幸,不得我命。如此而已.

前世的500次回眸才换来今生的一次擦肩而过。

我宁愿用来世的一次擦肩而过来换得今生的500次回眸。

我笑，全世界都跟着我笑；我哭，全世界只有我一个人哭。

孤独，不一定不快乐；

得到，不一定能长久。

失去不一定不再拥有，

可能因为某个理由而伤心难过

但，却能找个理由让自己快乐

爱上一个人的时候，总会有点害怕，怕得到他;怕失去他。

不用等待的人，是幸福的.

我们真的要过了很久很久,才能够明白,自己真正怀念的,到底是怎样的人,怎样的事.

什么事情都会习惯的，譬如别离和思念。

爱与被爱，不一定成正比。

在对的时间，遇见对的人，是一种幸福

在对的时间，遇见错的人，是一种悲伤

在错的时间，遇见对的人，是一声叹息

在错的时间，遇见错的人，是一种无奈

不要轻言放弃,否则对不起自己

如果哪天，我为别人披上了嫁衣，

也许是因为年龄，也许是因为累了，

也许是因为真的想与那个人携手一生……

Mr. Nice?

I am sick of being "Mr. Nice" anymore...things just turn out to be not the way u wanted it to be...

U wont get any benefit for being a "Mr. Nice" anymore..instead...ppl tend to take u for granted and started blaming u for not being "nice" enough.

Ur words really kill...

I am still a human that made out of flash...

I still do have feelings...

I have done so much just for u...and yet not even a single appreciation but yet a complain that I am being annoying? Well...nicely done.

I really started to get sick of being nice to everyone....

Really...fuck it man...time to be more selfish...

Care more for urself...

Be more selfish...

U said u dont want my love at all....

Okay...then I shall put my love to something/ someone else then.

kthxbye.

hbd.

放电的眼睛

请你不要再放电了。

这样的话，我很辛苦....

=(

Perfect Lies

Im a kind of guy that would give attention to small little things.

So, if u would like to lie to me. Try to make the lie a perfect one.

Instead of making me knowing that Im a fool all the while.

18/4/2011

It just dont feel right.

Hope that its juz me being too paranoid.

Is it the time for me to start pulling off my feeling slowly?

生平良朋

3年了，一转眼就已3年了...

我为你们而感到骄傲，那圆不了的梦你们却已帮我圆了。多少个彻夜不眠的努力终于造就了今天的你们。

里头的辛酸又有多少人懂。

我好爱你们啊！展翅高飞吧我的朋友们。。。

深有感触的一片文章。

你單身，我等你。

你說不想戀愛，我等你。

你突然有了新的開始，我等你。

你結束了你的愛需要療傷，我陪你，我等你。

我以為終有一天你會發現你身邊的我，終有一天會回頭。

卻從未想過，最終等來的卻還是，一句，對不起，你很好，可是……

我真想說一句:……對不起！

我承認。

我不介意遷就你。

我可以一直抬頭仰望你。

只是，你真的，從來都不看我嗎？

我在這裡啊，我在這裡啊！你聽見了嗎？

有時候會想。

我究竟喜歡你什麼。

我究竟在等你什麼？

也許得不到的才真的是最好的。

又或者，我只是沒有遇見，比你更好的。

是不是真的要到，等我忘記了你。

是不是真的要到，等我放棄了你。

是不是真的要到，等我離開了你。

你才能真正地知道，我於你而言，也是那麼重要。

你不知道某些時刻，我有多麼難過。

你不知道，沒有回應的等待，真的讓人很累。

你不知道，我是鼓起了多大的勇氣，才敢念念不忘。

又或者，你不是不知道，只是假裝不知道。

一次次反复。

哭累了，沉默了。

想放棄了，冷淡了。

可是時間一過，卻又還是想念了。

放不下，忘不掉，戒不了，走不開。

身邊的人都會心疼。

周圍的人都會勸解。

大概也就只有你了吧。

仍舊那麼無動於衷。

大概也就只有我了吧。

仍舊那麼情有獨鍾。

一直在等一個人

一直在等一個回頭

一直在等一份笑容

終於等到，我自己都沒了笑容

也夠了吧，我真的累了。

可是為什麼，我向左走，向右走，還是走不出愛你的圓。

我並不奢求在你那裡找到幸福

也不敢想你會有什麼付出

只是想，既然做了決定我就義無反顧

可笑的是，你卻連一個讓我義無反顧的機會都不給我。

告訴自己

讓自己離開你

告訴自己

這是最後一次哭泣

很多事情，都是有界限的

很多時候，再堅強的人都是會累的。

我不是真的傻瓜，只是曾經為你心甘情願。

很偶爾的

你會找我，聯繫我。

你的突然出現，還是會挑起我心裡的弦。

只是，我也學會對你偽裝了，不冷不熱，不咸不淡。

笑得沒心沒肺，也不會再流那，廉價的眼淚了。

然後聽你輕輕地說，你變了。

只是很突然的

看到一個相似的身影

聽到一個相似的聲音

總會身不由己，總會陷入回憶

不過，慢慢的，我也學著放下了

不是我變了，是我真的無能為力了、我認輸了。

我折騰不動了。

只是突然地

聽見那些歌

突然想起你。

你會在哪裡？

過得快樂或委屈？

每當聽到這樣的歌詞，總是不由自主地想起我們。

只是，我知道，我們已經不是我們，以前要的也不是現在這種以後。

那麼，許久之間，再次見面。

面對這樣的擁抱，我大概是不會有怎樣的情動了。

即使心裡翻天覆地，也會裝作一副淡然的樣子。

我曾經所有的熾烈，也最終，還是被你耗盡了。

怪你嗎？不怪你，誰都不怪，誰也怪不了。

Some joke that brighten up the gloomy blog.

布什说：“我们准备枪杀4千万伊拉克人和1个修单车的。”
CNN记者：“1个修单车的？！为什么要杀死一个修单车的？”
布什转身拍拍鲍威尔的肩膀：“看吧，我都说没有人会关心那4千万伊拉克人。”

STUPID ME

I felt so dam stupid laaaaa............!

ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

遗失的感觉...

终于知道遗失的是什么了。。

成就感。。。

那久违的成就感。。。

是时候找回来了。

Somebody

Ya..I am not ur anyone..

maybe I doesnt seem to be a matter to u...

U do hav the right to reject hanging out with me...

But u are my somebody..

So I do hav my right to ask u out also right?

1/4/2010

Went sing k with Leonard, Gavin, How zai...

Well...as always..sing k with them always bring me lots of fun...

=)

awesome night.

若， 梦， 现实

若当初没有发生这么多事情，

或许现在的我也会跟他们一样的毕业了。

或许无需像现在考虑得如此之多。

那遥遥无期的梦，是我一直以来的梦想。

在巴黎人来人往的人行道旁，

默默地，静静地，画着心中的散画。

脑海中多么美丽的一幅画。

当工作了以后，一直以来的梦想受到的牵动。

梦想与现实的距离越拖越远。

金钱成了评估一切的最原点。

梦。。

久而久之地。。

逝了。。。

30/3/2011

I had decided...

record every single day of my feelings toward u in another blog.

=)

从一个泥沼跳到另一个泥沼，

之间是快乐还是悲伤？

29/3/2011

I just tend to think too much....

Its me...

Thanks for all the caring ppl...

Its alright...

Im alright....

27/3/2011

我竟掉泪了？

Paranoid

I started to act like a paranoid after seeing ur post...

Afraid that what happened will happen again...

The feeling of insecure covering my whole heart...

Never mind...

Even if it happened...

This would be the last time..

Happy Birthday to my best bestie

Well...its ur day..

happy birthday bro..

times fly...

We had already know each other for more than 7 years...

Thanks for being by my side every time I needed it.

In order to make this post sound not so gay, I think I will juz stop here.

Once again, Happy birthday! Enjoy ur day. =)

Love u bro.

Shisha shishaaaa...!

Shisha really make me feel so nice...

hahahaha....it make me feel highhhhhhhhhhh.........!

I am so hyper nowwwwwwwwww.........!

Wheeeeeeeeee Wanggggggggggggg Wangggggggg.......!

I think i will feel stupid when I read this post tmr....LOLOLOLOL

Another dream 24/3/11

I had a dream last night.

Dreamt that I was walking with u.

Laying down on the beach, under the stars.

肩对肩的躺在点点星光下的沙滩上。。。

幸福就如此的简单。。。

是时候站回起来

最近都有很多事在烦，

又一度的颓废了。。。

是时候站回起来了！

区区的忧郁症算什么？Goh Hon Wai! U are much more stronger than this!

Its the time to stand back up and step back to the front of everyone.

Make your new resolution and give urself more self upgrade.

Clear your mindset and set back your target!

ITS THE TIME TO GET YOUR IMBANESS!

U CAN DO IT!

安全感

我给不到你要的安全感。

我只能给到我所能给你的关怀与爱。。

我不想因为那不必要的安全感而减少了身边的欢笑声。。。

若因此而无法得到爱情的话，

我认为。。。

值得！

情感太重

当爱上一个人，

世界仿佛就只是为了她转动。。

或许放入太多的情感，因她的一举一动都把我的情绪牵动。。

爱不是不要回报，而爱的回报就是对方的幸福与快乐。。

一直以来，我已经习惯，习惯了在背后默默地，静静地付出对一个人的爱。。

一次又一次的伤害，

这一次，最后一次了。

Love u...

I love u...I really really do...

It had been some times since the last time i got this kinda feeling...

I had said the words this time...



Sometimes, I really don't understand...

Do I really stand better as a best friend than a boy friend?

I started to hate being someone's best friend now.

=(

All about you...

I do always make arguement with people.

But with u, that would b a rare one.



Your words started to hurt friends around u that really care about u. At least its hurting me alot.



How would u expect me to treat u the way I do as before? After so many things happened...I am no longer in the right position to give all the care and love that I got toward u. Please do understand that. Am I still not treating u good enough now?



Things change, people change...sometimes u will juz need to move on instead of keep looking back to the old days that wouldn't come back. How much u are giving and how much are u expecting? To me, u do changed as well...taking back all the caring and love toward your friends juz for someone. I didnt mean that it's wrong to do so, just that u cant expect others still treat u the same after the changes as well right?



I don't know the relationship worth u to do so or not. But I'll still support u as I always do...U are still the 1st in my list. Take care my best friend. =)

Passion

Had a talk with Yeerick and Kah Yan few weeks ago in the mamak. Topic was about the passion in what u are doing.

I had a lay back and and have some serious thinking about it.

While i was still in secondary highschool...the main passion of mine would be gaming. I used to thought that with the skills i got it can lead me to another level in gaming zone. I was wrong i guess?

When I was in form5, I realise that I got a big interest in art. Done some research and talk with counsellor, I decided to get myself into the design film when I am out. Went in The One Academy and got some unforgetable memories. Good one ofcourse.

Drop out from TOA and work. Realising that money always come first, with the amount of effort that you gonna put into design film, u can probaly get much more better paid in other field. I decided not to go for my passion anymore.

I am studying finance now. Which is totally not related to my passion.

Hope its not a wrong decission.

一股想哭的冲动。。。

我只想像一般人般的生活。。。

为何老天偏要给我如此之多的历练呢。。。

累了又再振作，振作了又再累过。。。

我就快要放弃了。。。

忧郁忧郁。。。别来烦了！

Waiting

I had already make the move.

Now its the time to wait for the result.

做了一些不该做的事。。。

I felt so guilty...

and sad....

Damn it....!

Maybe...

Maybe its a time to move the 1 step front.

唉。。。

忧郁频频发作。。

是时候再次好好调整心情与处事心态了。

情人节快乐..

又到了这个节日，

这一年有人陪我过了。。。

=)

2/12/2011

我以为“三人游” 不再为你而播放...

往事只能回味

曾几何时，我的数学需要人教了？

Haihz...

病了

最近身体好像愈来愈弱了。。。

stay strong my body...!

我要上学!

......

梦

发了个恶梦，

残留在眼角的泪光让我回忆起那无法形容的痛。

一切，我已走过去了。

为自己而加油吧！

Club club club

Wheeeee.....! Just finish club in mist!

=)

自我反省

人说，杀不死你的痛会让你成长。

在人最低潮时，渡过的是依靠那在疼痛中所领悟的人生道理。

在黑暗中为找到一丝曙光而知足。

视野得而无限放大。

然而，当一切的痛消失时。

一丝曙光不再知足，感叹曙光为何来的如此的少。

一切又回到以往那狭窄的视野中

杀不死你的痛会让你成长？

知足长乐，常乐不知足。

不良习惯

1. 早上才睡

2. 天天喝酒

3. 天天打机

4. 不良饮食习惯

我完蛋了!

被人利用的感觉

一种被人利用的感觉。。。

唉。。。

Changes

我的世界似乎不再以你为中心而旋转。

以往的我，凡事都以你为先。。。

明白到人生途中，有些是无法逃避的，比如命运；有些是无法更改的，比如情缘；有些是难以磨灭的，比如记忆；有些是难以搁置的，比如爱恋……与其被动地承受，不如勇敢地面对；与其鸟宿檐下，不如击翅风雨；与其在沉默中孤寂，不如在抗争中爆发……路越艰，阻越大，险越多，只要走过去了，人生就会更精彩。

感谢妳让我体悟到了如此的许多许多。。

New year new plan...

Ppl often to say new year new plan...Its already a new year for me...but wats my new plan? =)

1 year after

It had been a year after since the last post of this site.

Many things happened and I didn't write it down in my blog.

Excuses always there.

Now Im gonna blog back.

=)