若， 梦， 现实

若当初没有发生这么多事情，

或许现在的我也会跟他们一样的毕业了。

或许无需像现在考虑得如此之多。

那遥遥无期的梦，是我一直以来的梦想。

在巴黎人来人往的人行道旁，

默默地，静静地，画着心中的散画。

脑海中多么美丽的一幅画。

当工作了以后，一直以来的梦想受到的牵动。

梦想与现实的距离越拖越远。

金钱成了评估一切的最原点。

梦。。

久而久之地。。

逝了。。。

30/3/2011

I had decided...

record every single day of my feelings toward u in another blog.

=)

从一个泥沼跳到另一个泥沼，

之间是快乐还是悲伤？

29/3/2011

I just tend to think too much....

Its me...

Thanks for all the caring ppl...

Its alright...

Im alright....

27/3/2011

我竟掉泪了？

Paranoid

I started to act like a paranoid after seeing ur post...

Afraid that what happened will happen again...

The feeling of insecure covering my whole heart...

Never mind...

Even if it happened...

This would be the last time..

Happy Birthday to my best bestie

Well...its ur day..

happy birthday bro..

times fly...

We had already know each other for more than 7 years...

Thanks for being by my side every time I needed it.

In order to make this post sound not so gay, I think I will juz stop here.

Once again, Happy birthday! Enjoy ur day. =)

Love u bro.

Shisha shishaaaa...!

Shisha really make me feel so nice...

hahahaha....it make me feel highhhhhhhhhhh.........!

I am so hyper nowwwwwwwwww.........!

Wheeeeeeeeee Wanggggggggggggg Wangggggggg.......!

I think i will feel stupid when I read this post tmr....LOLOLOLOL

Another dream 24/3/11

I had a dream last night.

Dreamt that I was walking with u.

Laying down on the beach, under the stars.

肩对肩的躺在点点星光下的沙滩上。。。

幸福就如此的简单。。。

是时候站回起来

最近都有很多事在烦，

又一度的颓废了。。。

是时候站回起来了！

区区的忧郁症算什么？Goh Hon Wai! U are much more stronger than this!

Its the time to stand back up and step back to the front of everyone.

Make your new resolution and give urself more self upgrade.

Clear your mindset and set back your target!

ITS THE TIME TO GET YOUR IMBANESS!

U CAN DO IT!

安全感

我给不到你要的安全感。

我只能给到我所能给你的关怀与爱。。

我不想因为那不必要的安全感而减少了身边的欢笑声。。。

若因此而无法得到爱情的话，

我认为。。。

值得！

情感太重

当爱上一个人，

世界仿佛就只是为了她转动。。

或许放入太多的情感，因她的一举一动都把我的情绪牵动。。

爱不是不要回报，而爱的回报就是对方的幸福与快乐。。

一直以来，我已经习惯，习惯了在背后默默地，静静地付出对一个人的爱。。

一次又一次的伤害，

这一次，最后一次了。

Love u...

I love u...I really really do...

It had been some times since the last time i got this kinda feeling...

I had said the words this time...



Sometimes, I really don't understand...

Do I really stand better as a best friend than a boy friend?

I started to hate being someone's best friend now.

=(

All about you...

I do always make arguement with people.

But with u, that would b a rare one.



Your words started to hurt friends around u that really care about u. At least its hurting me alot.



How would u expect me to treat u the way I do as before? After so many things happened...I am no longer in the right position to give all the care and love that I got toward u. Please do understand that. Am I still not treating u good enough now?



Things change, people change...sometimes u will juz need to move on instead of keep looking back to the old days that wouldn't come back. How much u are giving and how much are u expecting? To me, u do changed as well...taking back all the caring and love toward your friends juz for someone. I didnt mean that it's wrong to do so, just that u cant expect others still treat u the same after the changes as well right?



I don't know the relationship worth u to do so or not. But I'll still support u as I always do...U are still the 1st in my list. Take care my best friend. =)

Passion

Had a talk with Yeerick and Kah Yan few weeks ago in the mamak. Topic was about the passion in what u are doing.

I had a lay back and and have some serious thinking about it.

While i was still in secondary highschool...the main passion of mine would be gaming. I used to thought that with the skills i got it can lead me to another level in gaming zone. I was wrong i guess?

When I was in form5, I realise that I got a big interest in art. Done some research and talk with counsellor, I decided to get myself into the design film when I am out. Went in The One Academy and got some unforgetable memories. Good one ofcourse.

Drop out from TOA and work. Realising that money always come first, with the amount of effort that you gonna put into design film, u can probaly get much more better paid in other field. I decided not to go for my passion anymore.

I am studying finance now. Which is totally not related to my passion.

Hope its not a wrong decission.

一股想哭的冲动。。。

我只想像一般人般的生活。。。

为何老天偏要给我如此之多的历练呢。。。

累了又再振作，振作了又再累过。。。

我就快要放弃了。。。

忧郁忧郁。。。别来烦了！

Waiting

I had already make the move.

Now its the time to wait for the result.

做了一些不该做的事。。。

I felt so guilty...

and sad....

Damn it....!