What if i die?

Juz wondering...what if i die? I mean....a sudden death.....

What will the ppl that around me feel?

Sad? Happy? Shock?



People might juz get sad for a moment of their life....juz as i know.....not many of my frenz there is really willing to care abt me. Mayb i got alot of frenz...but frenz that really care abt me......haha....really damn little.........and even if they care, i dun think the feeling will last that long also....juz mayb.....few more months later, Ohh....honwai is dead.....and thats all......i guess.......Haha.............How sad my life is........Actually wats the point of living anyways? i hav lost mine.......

Haihz.....

nowadays feeling very moody...dun really know why...but 1 of the main reason is bcuz my figure drawing skill deprove too much ad....HAIHZ....


People around seem to be more busy and less caring for the friend around....everyone starting to couple ad....juz feel so lonely....all alone in the dark....i think my sickness is getting worse now.....really think too much.....kinda hard to find my true smile when im alone..........

Haihz....EMO!!! emo for no reason.........haihz.......................im so..........alone................

Who am i?

feeling kinda weird nowadays... maybe is bcuz of the frenz around me all started to couple ad....feeling kinda lonely now.....

Haihz....juz so hard to find someone to love.......

18/9/2008

Today is the last day of my 18th... realise that i had changed alot during this 18 years....



From a small little kid to a teenage...



18 years....counted as a long time....



My life started to begin when the time i stepped in Chong Hwa Highschool. Days there really make me enjoy alot.... But i didnt know how to appreciate things that around me, i had failed her... i had failed my frenz there....



Being a person that everyone envy on...having a fast learner brain that help me alot. Everyday fighting around and yet can get a good result...being the top one in the scout....having a girl that everyone wanted to hav...what else life could b better than this? But i juz ignore the care that she gave, putting my affort into something that i shouldn't.





Shifted school after 1 year of studying in Chong Hwa...went into S.m.k.d.u. Knowing alot of frenz frm the school....not really gaining any knowledge frm the school..... wasted 5 years of my life there lepak-ing, ponteng around.... Only know how to play play play....



Everseen form 5, my mindset started to change...started to notice....i should be serious on my life now. But still cant manage to get the result that i expect in SPM...nah...is juz a 2 month study...and SPM not really that important tru...





After graduated in SMKDU, went to a stoning life for 2 months... few of the frenz had fly out frm msia and continue their study oversea. Went to Canada for a month in march, gain alot from the trip and enjoy alot there.... After the canada trip, came back msia and had a waiter job in "wongkok" restuarant. Work for a month and start my course in T.O.A.



By here, i would like to thx some of my fren,

Chia ming - Really duno how to say abt u....but....thanks alot...my best buddy.....thx for being there...

Wei ru - Thanks for being there when it is the hardest time for me to walk tru. Ur support and caring mean alot to me... Thanks wei ru....

Faye- Thanks faye....for listening my old granma story and all ur caring....=)

Qian- Thanks for ur concern and caring...really appreciate it..

Janson- Thanks for giving me a place to sleep when i am alone....

The leaving of a Hawk....

Today, the legend of blitzone had left us..... Night Hawk.....had leave us and fly to his dream.......Aiya duno wat la.....

hawk had went to Aus today!!!! Who else is going to teach me in cs next time???? Haihz.....Take care la dude....all the best to u......=)

17/9/08

A super funny day.... Haha...went to sing k with college frenz and lecturer- Gavin, Leonard, Chun How, Yen, Miki, Howe, Rulz, Zhi Ling, Kar Leong and Mr.Chong Sern. At about 11.50 Gavin came my house and fetch me..* thank gavin~~~*

Supposingly we are meeting up at 12. But...u know....malaysian....=) Went to redbox after all of us meet up. Sing alot....but the best part was...Leo's "owh...u touch my talala~~~~owhh...my ding ding dong....." Hahahaha......really very clasic! Hahaha.....=D

After that went mc d and chill out there, and after mc d then went yum cha....at Mc d also...=.= in ss2. With Kah Yan, Leonard, Ryan....laugh till non stop.....Lol.....a very enjoyable day i should called it...=)

15/9/2008

Juz refresh back some old video made by Yeerick...Seeing back all the old days pics... think alot while seeing it...feel alot while seeing it.....


Times goes by, things cant be stay.....

Many things had changed, but still......

We are friends.....


Actaully im suppose to finish up my essay right now. But...being kind moody right now....dun really hav the mood to do anything....TODAY IS LI THENG's Birthday~~~ =) hehe...was really boring abt the party of theng on saturday... Felt so left out...and weird....bad organization i suppose... Haha......

After theng's party, i went for Op's bday party. Was so freaking funny there....haha many things happened.....Is so fun till i duno how to state out all the fun times....=D hahaha......kabale kena raped!!! xD Xeno Last man tower!!! Everyone kena gangbang!!! What a nice teamwork??!?! =) Haha...thats all for today then....=)

叶子的离去。。。 是因为风的追求，还是树的不挽留？

A very meaningful word to me....



Really....



叶子的离去。。。 是因为风的追求，还是树的不挽留？

Thanks....

Hi Wai, You still havent let me know what was bothering you. What normal things? ie Dad still putting you down or he touched you? If he ever lay hands on you again, please let me know. Dont worry I wont make a big screen but would advise you. Or was it financial problem ie Mum finding it hard to support you? Or she is nagging you again? Wai, you might not see it now but trust me. Majority of our parents' nagging are most of the time meant well i.e which they think they were right all the time. Of course they are not always right, they just want whats best for their children, according to them. So, we, as children are concerned have to listen and do what they want us to do. Of course, we dont always do what they said and thats how problems start. So, I suggest with your case is concerned, just listen to them (esp your Mum) and analyse the situation properly, perhaps have a second opinion with a mature friend/friend's parent or better still a lecturer/teacher who can give you good advise and then make up your mind before you disagree with your parents. Wai, its always good to talk. You got to learn to relax and dont let your short-temper manipulate your patient. Have your Mum sit down with you when both of you are relax and talk to her, explain the situation to her and make her understand, always compromise and perhaps meet in the middle in order to solve the problem. It is good to get a part time job to help out the shortage of money, of course you must make sure it wouldnt interfere with your studies. How is your course doing? Is it the same course you were telling me about last time we talked. Just be patient and I am sure what you are studing now would pay off one day. Wai, keep writing to me always. Doesnt matter what it is, problem or no problem, just talk to me, even girlfriend's problem or sex's (kidding), anything, anything at all. Please take care of yourself and let me know when its the best time to talk to you. Love youxxxxx




Lai Gu, ur concern is very appreciated....thanks alot.....thanks for the caring......while the time no1 really willing to waste their time on me. Thanks....

Haihz..

Am i really that annoying? sorry if i annoyed u, been really upsad nowadays....many things are troubling me...sorry for not concerning abt ur feeling...but, do u need to block me? What really did i do? Haihz....

Fallen in love again?

OMG.... I think i fallen in love again....the only one which i still dare to love....... I DUN WAN TO FALL IN LOVE!!!!! SHIT laa....haihz.....hope the feeling will go away asap....

5/9/2008

Today juz went to college to take my result. WOOooooT!!! All passed...phew~ was kinda scared when i am on the way to the college but then i got all pass!!! ( Shawn fetched me to college with Gavin also ) Haha...

Guess what? My history got A!!! ZOMG!!!! An A!!! It really shocked me, coz i was thinking am i going to fail my history? Haha...

After we took the result we went to Noodle facing Noodle to have our lunch. Miss it so much, so long nvr taste it ad...slurp~~~ hehe....After the lunch then we balik kampung lorr~~~

Went home...do ntg. Went for meetoto for awhile...then went to sleep...juz a nap la....

At night went BLITZONE!!! Went to fetch Yeerick and Man Loke. Saw Boon Keat, Boon Shung, Hock ann, Meow Leong they all in blitzone. WOOOOTTT~~~~ so long nvr come here ad...i miss the old blitzone~~ hahaha...went till 1 a.m like that then i fecth them back and myself also balik kampung...then went meetoto awhile~~~ THATS ALL LA~~

should i really care abt it?

Juz realise wei ru, kah yan, li theng had got into an accident. Was worried abt them, but the replied they give really kinda piss me off...or maybe is juz my attitude that make me piss off...? Ask them what happened..and yet no1 willing to giv me an answer. Kah yan somemore say " Everytime i asked u something u sure ask me to go and ask the Dong Si Yen, now let u feel how annoying is that la..." okay...so i shouldn't care abt u all actually...