20/8/2008

I felt very lonely these days...coz frenz around me started to couple and couple....holding each other hand, hugging and kissing each other....

For that, i hav been being very desperate into love in these few days....and now im glad that to say....im no longer desperate...=) But still...i feel the lonelyness in my heart....juz so hard to find someone to lay on....

Friends dont really seem to be like what it used to be...i seem to be like nothing toward my friends....is it because of i do not stick to a group? Or juz bcuz of my attitude? I dun really know...it juz seem like my exist is nothing towards this world...

17/10/08

Being more and more lonely nowadays...

hav been taking part in Wgt, going for some training....homework and assignment started to b more and more....time really consume out alot....

Frenz seem to be more and more far compare to the last time.... I seem to be nothing......nothing really matter in the world.....

Whats the meaning of fren? I started to confuse abt this word.....frenz....friend? No one would really care about me.....is this suppose to be happen when u got alot of friends? Or....juz the quality of frenz had changed?

Human are juz a puppet of Life....puppet......

WGT im coming!

Decided to join WGT this year....i know is not a right choice...going for the 6th week ad but still wanna go for WGT....i really think god will spawn time to me...hahaha....but....nvm la......juz follow what my heart tell me to do.


WGT!!! I AM COMING!!!!

Training, drawing, homework, assignment, exam....etc etc......HonWai....u think u r God ar? u r G...but not God....=______=

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Nowadays cant really control my emotional anymore....sickness become worse and worse...duno how long can i stand it....the feeling of death is so real again....


Who am i? The sentence that keep repeating in my head....

I wish.....everything can just go back to what it was....

I wish.....i dun grow up..........

I wish......i dun hav a brain.......

Nothing will be coming on what i wished for.....this is what life is.....

I am just nothing......the feel of death is juz so strong...again.....no1 is beside me to support.....i am all alone again.......things that on the surface is juz so unreal.....everythings are lies....what should i believe on....? Who should i believe on?

Annoying me?

ㄚａｎ【6 + 12 + 1990 = 2008 】[Peter Pan Syndrome]
not in the mood to chat with u
not busy

- HonWai -
=.=
y?
angry at me ar?

ㄚａｎ【6 + 12 + 1990 = 2008 】[Peter Pan Syndrome]
duno

- HonWai -
=_____=

ㄚａｎ【6 + 12 + 1990 = 2008 】[Peter Pan Syndrome]
no

- HonWai -
wat did i do?
T_______T

ㄚａｎ【6 + 12 + 1990 = 2008 】[Peter Pan Syndrome]
nth

- HonWai -
nth den dun feel like toking to me
sob sob...
i so inocent...
T____T

ㄚａｎ【6 + 12 + 1990 = 2008 】[Peter Pan Syndrome]
the way u tok
very annoying
to tell the truth onie




Am i really that annoying?

Again?

Really getting more and more confuse nowadays....am i in love again? I am not really sure abt my feelings....cant really handle it anymore....bcome more and more difficult to handle my emotional nowadays....

Knowing that loving her is something that i shouldn't.....but? Am i really in love with her? I really cant tell.....

FUCKTARD DAY!

Overnight at vincent's house, wake up early in the morning...left hand fucking pain....got class today, force to drive back home....fucking hard to change the gear....

Reached home...hand situation getting worse...decided not to go to the class and hav a rest in the house....After taking the painkiller and the rest, hand feeling much more better....

Planed last week ago that today suppose to go out with Wei Ru, so i sms her and ask her what time should i go and pick her up... She replied at abt 12pm, telling me that she needs to help her mum to do something 1st, will let me know when she is free...

Damn hungry....coz not yet even taken my breakfast....wanted to wait for wei ru and hav the meal with her...wait and wait and wait.....cannot stand it anymore....So i decided to go out and c wat movie is nice to watch.....went to 1u walked around....got idea of wat movie to watch ad...wei ru still not ready.....so...i went to blitzone and wait for her call....


At 3.30 wei ru msg me...telling me that li theng asked her to go out....GOOD!!! mean i kena ffk!!! and drag the time till abt 4pm....which i confirmed that i kena ffk ad....i drive back home...BUT!!! the fucktard car got something wrong....will auto turn off suddenly....Woohooo!!! Almost get my self killed by a MyV.....

After the turning off and on ride....a miracle that i reached my home safely.....CB FUCKTARD DAY!!! ZzZZzzZzzzZzzz.......