Love u...

I love u...I really really do...

It had been some times since the last time i got this kinda feeling...

I had said the words this time...



Sometimes, I really don't understand...

Do I really stand better as a best friend than a boy friend?

I started to hate being someone's best friend now.

=(

All about you...

I do always make arguement with people.

But with u, that would b a rare one.



Your words started to hurt friends around u that really care about u. At least its hurting me alot.



How would u expect me to treat u the way I do as before? After so many things happened...I am no longer in the right position to give all the care and love that I got toward u. Please do understand that. Am I still not treating u good enough now?



Things change, people change...sometimes u will juz need to move on instead of keep looking back to the old days that wouldn't come back. How much u are giving and how much are u expecting? To me, u do changed as well...taking back all the caring and love toward your friends juz for someone. I didnt mean that it's wrong to do so, just that u cant expect others still treat u the same after the changes as well right?



I don't know the relationship worth u to do so or not. But I'll still support u as I always do...U are still the 1st in my list. Take care my best friend. =)

Passion

Had a talk with Yeerick and Kah Yan few weeks ago in the mamak. Topic was about the passion in what u are doing.

I had a lay back and and have some serious thinking about it.

While i was still in secondary highschool...the main passion of mine would be gaming. I used to thought that with the skills i got it can lead me to another level in gaming zone. I was wrong i guess?

When I was in form5, I realise that I got a big interest in art. Done some research and talk with counsellor, I decided to get myself into the design film when I am out. Went in The One Academy and got some unforgetable memories. Good one ofcourse.

Drop out from TOA and work. Realising that money always come first, with the amount of effort that you gonna put into design film, u can probaly get much more better paid in other field. I decided not to go for my passion anymore.

I am studying finance now. Which is totally not related to my passion.

Hope its not a wrong decission.

一股想哭的冲动。。。

我只想像一般人般的生活。。。

为何老天偏要给我如此之多的历练呢。。。

累了又再振作，振作了又再累过。。。

我就快要放弃了。。。

忧郁忧郁。。。别来烦了！

Waiting

I had already make the move.

Now its the time to wait for the result.

做了一些不该做的事。。。

I felt so guilty...

and sad....

Damn it....!

Maybe...

Maybe its a time to move the 1 step front.